Stop haunting me with that steely gaze. Stop reminding me of why I can never fit in here. I wish I had it easy like you. I never had it that lucky.  Why do you keep finding me? I keep trying to run away and avoid you. But your omniscient presence haunts me. I wanted to wipe this slate clean and start over. But because of you, it reminded me of the past. Don’t you know? How I wish I could bleach my mind of all the stains, you left in me. Life is not fair, and you are part of my oppression. My dictator. You played the cards. You were the mastermind, my puppet master. You control my every move, my every action, you orchestrated and manipulated everything.

Heidi